A painting i did in 2007. I started a new style of painting that year. I really wanted to paint my own original ideas and to convey my spirituality onto canvas. This one is about being stable in my own center. It has soothing, cool colours and silver and gold touches.

MORE ART.

Elf Woman
I painted this in 2007. I wanted to do try to paint a portrait of a beautiful woman and this is how it turned out. I am not totally happy with it. I dont really like her shirt but the painting is nice enough. It is done in watercolour.

I painted this in 2007 when my daughter was about 4 months old. It is done with watercolours. I love this painting and am quite proud of it. I like how well I drew the faces and I love my purple hair (if only it was really that colour . This is definitely a keepsake for my daughter.

This is called Jumping in the Garden.
It’s another Fairy watercolour I painted in 2006. Shes a little nudist who likes to frolic among the flowers.

This is called om mani padme hum which is a tibetan mantra said in meditation. Om mani padme hum is said to contain all of Buddhas teachings and its meaning can not be summed up in a few words or even a few sentances. I Like to use it to create compassion and harmony within.

Went out last night to a party my friend threw for my sisters birthday….it was pretty fun. Its funny though, I just feel so different then alot of ppl and i feel like not very many people understand me. I used to party alot when i was younger. I went out every weekend but i have never been much of a wild girl. I am quite shy in alot of ways…plus i have a sexy ass man already. Last night was the first time i had been out in a long time and man….i just could not do it all the time. It seems to me that it is all about sex. Chicks get glammed up…and then shake their bodies on the dance floor. I have nothing against sex or dirty dancing…but I have more fun getting drunk and talking. I love conversation..especially deep conversations. I cant get off with just surface shit. Mundane bullcrap about how much of a victim you are is just not gonna get me excited. I love people though and i have always been a fond watcher of the human race. I love to try to figure people out, even though it is quite impossible…cause i dont understand most peoples behaviors. I can see the energy wars that happen though and it is very interesting to watch people getting off on sex and violence, and how people steal each others energy in different ways. In some ways i wish i could be like everyone else but i am also very glad that i am not. I do not think of myself as superiour in any way….just different. For example….I dont have tv, i havent for years. So when ppl contantly make references to tv shows, i have no clue what they are talking about, or i dont find it as hilarious as they do. I love to get out and mingle though, and i can find the good in anyone, so i always have fun and enjoy myself. I love that i can go out and have a good time without haveing to get totally smashed. I feel great today…no hangover! I only had 3 drinks.
It was funny, I got bugged about drinking water instead of booze…i always have water with me and i cannot understand how ppl can function without water, especially when they are drinking alcohol. It boggles my mind that more ppl arent drinking water….do these ppl not realize that they are slowly killing themselves? I dunno, i just cant treat my body that way anymore. I would love if people could really realize that they are the true creators of their experience and if you just stopped and stayed still for awhile you would be able to find your self. Why do some people party all the time? There is like this constant hunger for fun…….
The reason this all interests me so much is because my mom is a partyaholic, she has been for her whole life pretty much. I grew up in an alcoholic environment and i could never do that to my children. (That is a whole nother article!) I see people here going down the same road. I see girls getting way beyond shitfaced, girls who do exctasy for like a week straight and i wonder what they are searching for. One girl said that she was trying to find herslef and i told her, “your right here”. And you really are “right here”, yet we search for ourselves “out there”, we look everywhere but where we really are. Getting drunk and doing drugs are not good ways of finding yourself, because they take you away from yourself…(medicinal plants such as marijuana and mushrooms not included).
There is also a clinging to youth and sex appeal….but we all get older and there is nothing you can do about that. I see my mom and she has definately aged physically but not mentally or emotionally. Its like that constant search for a fun moment, a feeling of bliss, rules her life. I think we all want that but we are not taught that we can create that in ourselves. We need not have alcohol or drugs to feel good. However, we all have shadows, we all have hidden and repressed aspects of ourselves and we all have scars, and these parts must be emraced. If we are to feel good as human beings, we must process our shit. We must be willing to feel the pain, instead of masking it. And once we face the hurt, we can move forward, choose differntly, choose happiness. Happiness only comes from a bottle for so long and eventually your demons will come to call, and if you still ignore them…they will just keep getting louder and more extreme. How many fucking wake up calls do people need? IF you are getting sick, if you feel like shit, you are doing something wrong! Your body is saying stop it! Alot of people cant sit still for very long because when your still, your demons can get your attention and most people do not like that so they go on being busy and ignoring their inner vioces. We ALL have intuition and we all KNOW what we need to do, we are just very good at ignoring it.
I am not perfect in any means, I have my issues, but i try to deal with them. I look to myself for answers, I ask myself questions, “what are my motives?”, “How can i be commpassionate in this situation?”, “how am i contributing to this problem?”, “Why do i really feel angry right now?”, and such……. I realize that there is never anyone or anything to blame but myself because we always have a choice and i know that we only bring into our lives that which we are. If you are angry, you will see anger around you, and you will experience angry situations. If you are loving, you will attract loving situations; People will be nice to you, you’ll attract generosity, and smiles.
I could talk about so much but i am running out of steam for now so…..peace!

I painted this for my friend for a Christmas present. It was inspired by her nickname Earthweaver.

i just read this awesome article and I had to post it. It is from www.spiritcrossing.org

Within DNA Lives Our Yearning
by Toni Elizabeth Sar’h Petrinovich, Ph.D.

Deep within the heart of every person alive is a feeling that we often call yearning. In the New Oxford American dictionary, yearning is defined as “having an intense feeling of loss or lack and longing for something”. It is derived from a Germanic base meaning “eager”.

So what are we feeling a lack of? For what is our longing? What is our eagerness about?

Our minds work and have interplay within a field that is called the Quantum Hologram by quantum physics. According to this science, the basis of subjective experience is rooted in the concept of non-locality. Evidence for mankind’s perceiving non-local information dates to prehistory (Edgar Mitchell, Sc.D., Institute of Noetic Sciences, in his paper “Nature’s Mind: the Quantum Hologram”). Within this quantum hologram is encoded the complete history of every event.

Since the brain looks for that which is familiar and compares it to other experiences based upon memory, the yearning that we are feeling must come from something that we already know. If this were not true, there would be no yearning because our yearning is a feeling. We do not experience feelings about that which we do not know.

Let us look at how this translates to our physical bodies, perceptions of our world and what we loosely all our “reality”.

Our body is a protein making machine. The word protein is derived from the Greek “proteios” meaning primary. Proteins (our primaries) are made of amino acids. The shape of the protein is derived from a positive or negative signal produced by our environment. The cells read the environment selecting the behavior (movement) that is appropriate based upon the information found there. The sequence of the DNA within the cell is the amino acid sequence. The stability of the interaction resides within the DNA rather than the changeable protein. (www.brucelipton.com)

In the last few years, two Russian scientists, Grazyna Fosar and Franz Bludorf, have done research and the necessary scientific experiments to confirm the fact that the human DNA is a biological Internet. They published their findings in a German languaged book Vernetzte Intelligenz (Networked Intelligence).

Fosar and Bludorf’s thesis is that DNA can be influenced and programmed by words and frequencies. They explored the 90% of our DNA that is not understood and is commonly called “junk DNA”. Junk DNA, drastically misnamed, could more easily be called “non-coding DNA” or “potential DNA”. The focus of their study resulted in the conclusion that our DNA, while responsible for the construction of the physical body, is also a data storage and communication device. In particular, the 90% non-coding DNA follows the rules of syntax, semantics and the basic grammar rules with which we are familiar.

Quoting from Vernetzte Intelligenz: “Living chromosomes function just like solitonic-holographic computers using the endogenous DNA laser radiation”. What does this mean?

Breaking this concept down to its most elementary concepts and based upon the laser ray experiments conducted by Fosar and Bludorf, it means that laser radiation is inherent within DNA itself flowing as a unique holographic wave. Since the DNA contains within this wave the basic rules of language that are used in daily life, no DNA decoding is necessary. Simple words and sentences of any human language suffice in creating the environment that is the wavelike, holographic experience of the DNA thereby encoding it with the information that the cell receptors respond to and creating changes within the amino acid chains and hence the proteins. Through our thoughts, words and feelings we create not only our perceptions, also our bodies.

How does this correspond to our yearning? How does this fulfill the expression of the lack or desire for that which we yearn?

Since mankind appears to be on the fast track to accelerated conscious awareness, the frequency of the vibration of that DNA wave must also be accelerating (”As above, so below”). As the frequency (that is the oscillation) of the holographic mind (in non-locality) increases, we find our languaging changing thus influencing the effect we have on our DNA itself.

The frequency of our thought patterns, our words and our feelings must be coherent (troughs and crests equal in amplitude) to access the acceleration physically. This explains why some of us are experiencing the shift in our DNA and some have not yet done so. Coherent frequencies allow us to consciously communicate with our DNA and create the space in time for the DNA to embody these frequencies opening the door to expeditious reception of multi-dimensional information. How is this possible?

Fosar and Bludorf also found that our DNA can create patterns of disturbance within our time/space continuum (our holographic vacuum) producing magnetized wormholes. Though most audiences are familiar with wormholes through science fiction works such as Star Trek, they are actually tunnel-like connections between different universal areas transmitting information outside of space and time. Imagine an hourglass with one round globe situated in one universe and the other globe situated in another (the second globe’s frequency being compatible with receptivity within this dimension). The two globes of the hourglass are connected by a thin tunnel through which information travels from one dimension to another not reliant upon space or time.

The emotions that we experience that create the feelings we have and manifest the thoughts created within our minds generate a frequency within our DNA that attracts information from these other dimensions (through the “wormhole”) and passes it to our consciousness. Again, this ability is based upon the proper frequency within our bodies which is most easily created through states of relaxation, peace and ease. Stress, worry and similar states of being create incoherent waves resulting in confusion that prevent a state of hypercommunication.

Based upon these scientific findings and the reams of additional information now readily available to us, it is apparent that the conscious awakening of the holographic awareness now being experienced by man (homo sapiens sapiens) is being promulgated by the strong yearning (creating the feeling/thought) to become consciously aware of that which we believe we lack or have lost – our conscious awareness of our Oneness with All That Is. I use the term “All That Is” to define much more than that which may be thought of as “God” or “Source”. I truly mean ALL THAT IS. When our perspective of reality is that of the holographic connection to the multi-dimensions and beyond, we will begin to experience an awareness that is outside of manifestation in any form and expression. Every coincidence will become a co — incident (experiencing together). Intimacy will become in-to-me-see and all of the other play with words and language that allows us to see each other. At that moment, the yearning will cease and the YOU-ning that IS the Oneness will be the only experience.

Practices that allow for the interpretation of day-to-day expression as one of union, joy, appreciation, love and gratitude bring about this coherent waveform within the bodies (spiritual, mental, emotional and physical). Focusing upon and deriving pleasure from these practices creates the non-local paradigm within which we are invited to function. When truly living within this new framework of perception, our attention upon our intention of Oneness is our only focus. We can then experience our yearning as fulfillment without lack or loss. We then acknowledge that our yearning has awakened within us the knowledge that we are truly home.

Toni Elizabeth Sar’h Petrinovich, Ph.D. is a visionary, weaver of grace, quantum physicist and multidimensional traveler. Born with memory of the etheric worlds intact, Toni uses her gifts to expand the same re-membrance within the consciousness of other beings. She is the owner of Sacred Spaces in the beautiful San Juan Islands off the coast of Washington State where she conducts personal sessions, retreats and etheric readings for all those drawn to the authentic Self. She is the author of The Call – Awakening the Angelic Human and its accompanying CD, DNA Re-Awakening. Toni is also a direct channel for the Light Orbs who are the Guardians of the Soul. She offers long distance healing, spiritual counseling, soul readings, light orb readings and chakra readings by appointment. For more information regarding Toni’s work or to contact her by telephone or email, please see her websites: http://www.sacredspaceswa.com and http://www.angelichuman.com

here is a piece of my artwork. It shows a fairy and a unicorn creating stars together. I painted it for my daughters 4th birthday.

Today i decided to start a blog……pretty awesome heh? I am doing what everyone else seems to be doing….which is totally not my normal thing. I like to go against the grain….be different just for the sake of being different. This blog will be a blog about me and my thoughts….about my interests, such as, astrology, art, design, crafts, kids, sceince, new thought, technology, creativity, miracles, Poeple making a difference, Music…man i could go on for awhile. Let me tell you now…i like to use dot dot dot …… alot……..